Ive recently come to the realization that I’m a bad good mom. After running 2 miles on the treadmill and 20 minutes in the sauna, it hit me. Oh, before I continue.. I’m not “one of those moms” (…whatever that is) I just need to knock some poundage off so I’m trying to go to the gym more often.

Anyways; my son goes to daycare 3 days a week usually from 8-3, but they offer before and after school care.

Today, I wasn’t feeling going to work so I didn’t. But you better believe he went to school. Dropped him off at 9 and went Christmas shopping until it was close to 3, then decided I wanted more time to myself. Does that make me a bad mom?

So I went to the gym ran on the treadmill all whilst thinking about my son. Hoping he’s not the last one there. (Keep in mind it was roughly 3:15 and they stay open until 6) but still was thinking he could be the last one. Decided to “clear my mind” and go in the sauna. Nope. I was wondering if he was hungry because they don’t get afternoon snacks, wondering if he realized he’d been there longer than usual.. He’s 2 with no sense of time. I turned my headphones even higher and tried to drown my thoughts. Then I started thinking about how he would’ve loved to swim in the indoor pool but of course I was being selfish and didn’t want to bring him today. Does that make me a bad mom?

After being at the gym for about 45 minutes I decide to make the treck across town to pick him up. Hit every stoplight, everyone was sure to be going the 25mph, I even needed to stop for gas. But I got there & there were other parents pulling in at the same time, so I guess he wasn’t the last one. So I decided to check my email before heading in. Does that make me a bad mom?

As soon as I walked in to sign him out I hear, “mom, mom, mommyyyy!” Yep, that’s him. I gave him big hug and we went to the car. Moments after he is buckled up he starts yelling something about a sucker and wanting some ice cream, along with him throwing hot wheels into the front seat.

Can I go back to the gym!?!? Does that make me a bad mom?

Now that I’m unwinding from the day I’ve realized a few things. Sometimes it’s okay to only have eggs and yogurt for dinner & also… None of this made me a bad mom.

Today while I was trying to be off “mom duty” I continuously was thinking about my son. His well being, his happiness, his nutrition. I never had a thought that didn’t involve him.. Well I never went 3 minutes without a thought about him. My Christmas shopping was all about him, my workout was all about him, and look… This first blog post is all about him.

Does that make me a good mom?